Some things don't matter at all. There are times when what we see going on around us isn't what our mind tells us it is. What we see is not the same as what we think.
What we think we see could be based on an underlying fear or feeling of guilt. I don't know anyone who hasn't done a few things that they aren't ashamed of. I'm not talking about socities moral scale like crime - I mean what WE know is right and wrong, what we feel we did that was hurtful as a human being or a boundary that we crossed of a religious nature.
You think something has to be going on RIGHT NOW to cause fear but that's not the case. If you've damaged another human being unjustly and you have no remorse about it then you've change the nature of your DNA because it wasn't the first time and it won't be the last - unless . . . . . you change and change drastically!
People think everyone will notice when we " change our ways " to use a familiar term but that's not the case. Sure you could change your hair style, your clothing style and your job but that's the external which anyone is capable of doing. NO, that's not change and besides, change is a process which leads to transformation. Who truelly knows about OUR change? WE know it and I'll tell you why, because unwarranted fear will leave us- that paranoia. Who truelly knows about OUR change? WE know it and I'll tell you why because needless guilt disappears - shame!
It doesn't matter who OUT THERE knows we've changed AND if you're going around announcing how different you are compared to " who you were " then you've completely lost your mind. You only THINK you have the ability to see the world through compassionate, loving and peaceful eyes. Yes, you're on a mission underneath that thick skin of yours to redeem yourself and redemption and transformation don't live in the same village!
AND if life seems to be handing you the proverbial " bad cards " then the deck is still stacked against you and here's why - underneath it all you're still a coward with merciless motives. And the hatred that you exhale through your pulsating nostrils is poisoning all those around you! You're a fake and those who don't know it RIGHT THIS MINUTE will know it eventually because THE TRUTH is a mighty Goddess and her sword is Justice.
So, take your eyes off everyone else and look NOT into a mirror! I tell you not into a mirror because you LIE to yourself!
Meditate, self-examinate, look into your soul- go deep. Get rid of YOUR fears and get rid of YOUR guilt and heal. Because when YOU heal then YOU stop hurting . . . . . . . yourself and others.
papajohn
